Lady Gaga opens up about her dark end to 2013 in the latest issue of Harper’s Bazaar. While her cover photo may be typical Gaga (pretty outrageous and out there), her detailed description about overcoming her dark past left us pretty inspired.

Gaga recently penned an open letter to all her Monsters about what was happening behind-the-scenes of her career, but as it turns out, it was way worse than we all thought. “I became very depressed by the end of 2013,” she said. “I was exhausted fighting people off. I couldn’t even feel my own heartbeat. I was angry, cynical, and had this deep sadness like an anchor dragging everywhere I go. I just didn’t feel like fighting anymore. I didn’t feel like standing up for myself one more time – to one more person who lied to me.”

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Gaga added, “But January 1, I woke up, started crying again, and I looked in the mirror and said, “I know you don’t want to fight. I know you think yu can’t, but you’ve done this before. I know it hurts, but you won’t survive this depression.”

She continued, “I really felt like I was dying – my light completely out. I said to myself, ‘Whatever is left in there, even just one light molecule, you will find it and make it multiply. You have to for you. You have to for your music. You have to for your fans and family.’ Depression doesn’t take away your talented – it just makes them harder to find. But I always find it. I learned that my sadness never destroyed what was great about me. You just have to go back to that greatness, find that one little light that’s left. I’m lucky I found one little glimmer stored away.”

Truly inspiring.